Have You Ever

Have you ever cried at night,
thinking it was bad?
Have you ever lost a love,
the only thing you ever had?
Have you ever screamed out loud
from the pain you have felt?
Have you ever stopped and looked
at pain you have dealt?
Have you ever questioned someone
of love and if it's true?
Have you ever really wondered
if they truly feel for you?
Have you ever felt abused
or worried while you wait?
Have you ever made a big, huge deal
over someone being late?
Have you ever had them leave
and watched them walk away?
Have you ever thought of leaving,
but could only sit and stay?
Have you ever hurt someone
and looked at what you've done?
Have you ever been the one that's hurt
and thought you were the only one?
Have you ever loved another
and never told them so?
Have you ever tried to tell them,
but didn't know how it would go?
Have you ever been alone,
where no one else could see,
so you sat at home, remaining unknown,
having no where else to be?
I've felt this way before.
I've watched and walked through that door,
but nothing makes it better,
the guilt and pain that I feel.
I wish it would go away.
I wish it wasn't real,
but that is not the case
and it could never be.
It took me too long to open up
and way too long to see.
I have to own up to the mistakes I've made,
get past the pains I've felt,
wipe away the tears that are in my eyes
and reflect on the tears I've dealt.
I must tell someone when I love them
before they go away
and maybe if I word it right,
they just might want to stay.