You meant so much

You meant the world to me
The only true friend
In the world
And you belonged to me
At one time
And I had it all
Because I had you
No
I'm not mad at you
You just didn't know
How much you meant to me
But know that you're gone
I just want to put that gun
Up to my chest
And feel it's cold
Hard metal
And pull the trigger
And when you walked off
Without one expression of regret
I just wanted to burst into tears
I just wanted my whole body to burst
So I can die
Because without a true freind
I might as well be dead and gone