I Believe He Deserves Better.

I often wonder
if he deserves better.
I believe he does.
I thought I could keep it to myself.
I thought I wouldn't hurt him.
I hurt him.
I hurt us.
I've betrayed and
I've lied.

Why oh why?!
can't I stop the tears I cry?

How will I forgive myself?
How will he forgive me?
So lonely.
So scared.
I don't wonder
I know he deserves better.