Writer's Block

I don’t want to waste away
Go away
With nothing else that I can say
Can’t stand to fade away
The end is not a choice to me
This isn’t just a phase to me
Do you remember what we were going to be?
I’m hoping your hurting inside, so I don’t see
I’m dreaming of this everyday
And I’m never sad to say
You’re gone, now and forever
Never turning back, never
Screaming the words I dare not say
Staring at the cars as they speed by me,
Under me,
Fading away
Close my eyes and take a breath
Scream with a heart that’s just a mess
Been far away, so long now
Praying Dear god, take me away now
Buried beyond your deepest desires
Buried alive, because you can’t ever kill me
Your hazel eyes watching my tinted heart
Red from blood it bled tearing you apart
I remember the tears, the hugs
The campfires, the bugs
The secrets the walks,
Closing doors, using the locks
I taught you what you liked
And from me you learned what to want
But you left me craving more from many,
Not just you
And now I’m left loving not just one, but two
Thought these guys were my heaven but they only brought me pain
Don’t try to hold me down,
Don’t jump in
I won’t stand for that
‘Cuz I’m my only world
And that is how it will stay
They’ll be no more tears in my heaven
Take them to hell with you
Figure out what else to do
‘Cuz though I’ve got writer’s block
It’s not because of you
I’m making my life rock
Once again.