Afraid to Feel

I can't feel how nauseated and lonely I am
I can't feel how excruciatingly broken I am
I can't feel the hole in my heart
a lonely gap ther from the very start

and I sit up every silent night
thinking "if only, if only"
because I can't feel
that I'm broken and lonely

I'm numb from the pain,
I let it settle in
I think I'm insane
because I can't feel my own skin

In this dark room
so draining and overwhelming
I'm awaiting my doom
so patiently and willing

Because I can't feel the rain
dripping through to my blood
and I can't feel the tears
trickling down my skin

I can't feel the laughter
dying in my mind
I can't feel my heart
beating slower inside

Because I'm so numb from your words
I let them settle in
I know I'm going crazy
because I can't feel my skin

and I wonder to myself
why I can't feel how sad I am
I think I need help
but no one gives a damn

I can't feel your hand in mine
trying to make me feel better
or the way I'm dying inside
all because of your letter.

I'm numb from the pain
I let it settle in
I think I'm insane
because I can't feel the sin

I can't feel
the words being spoken
trying to break
what's already broken

I can't feel myself
slowly losing my mind
because of the number of times
I've been set aside

and I can't feel myself
dying a little everyday
just wanting to feel
just wanting you to stay