My heart on your sleeve

My heart hurts.
Like it's been ripped out of my chest.
Like it's not even there.
My eyes red from the tears.
My cheeks tear stained.
Who ever knew love could end like this.
In a heart beat.
Even though it feels like mine isn't even there.
Now again I'm debating if it's even real...
I loved you and still do even, though I don't want to.
I hope one day you will look back and say wow... she really loved me.
And regret the decision you made.
But for now, I will stand back alone and watch you be with her.
With my heart on your sleeve.