shes killing me

Day after day
year after year
I walk this earth
with nothing but fear.

I stay up all night,
thoughts flood my head,
wanting to know where you are,
and praying ur not dead .

I run to you with open arms,
hoping for kisses and hugs,
but instead u turn ur back to me,
and reach for the drugs,

so now I'm alone,
trying to keep from crying,
forcing a stupid smile on my face
when inside I'm dying

dont get me wrong, i love my mom. but shes killing me.