Burning

Why am I not surprised?
Me and You
Finally talking
One another
Taking a breath from real life
You blew me off the first time
And then the next time
Something comes up
Wasn't even 5 minutes
"Oh hey baby, Sorry I Got Something"
You don't notice the silence?
Well I do

There are times I scream so loud
My throat closes
There are times I cry so much
I'm emotionless
Everyday seems to get harder and harder
Without you
Without hearing you
Knowing your there for me
I'm always there for you,
Why am I getting the short end?

I'm so tired of this
I can't believe you can do this
But I come back again and again
Like a broken record
This is how our relationship is
The constant apologies
And the heartbreaking
It's hard to say "I love you" anymore

This burning is driving me crazy
It’s all over me
I can’t get it to stop
It just keeps spreading
No matter how much I plead
It won’t let go of me


You want to know how many times I cry?
I can’t count those days
Because their all blurred together
Like a painting
That was never really finished

You want to know how bad the aching is?
Well baby let me tell you
It takes over my body
And leaves me going crazy
It makes me feel like I’m all over the place
The numbness is spreading
Why aren’t you coming to save me?

Do I need to scream for you?
Do I need to yell out for you?
Into the night the noise goes
Going unnoticed by everybody
Does it matter anymore if I keep breathing?
Does it matter if I just slit my wrist and cut my throat?
Letting myself bleed all over this floor
Does it really even matter anymore?

This burning is driving me crazy
It’s all over me
I can’t get it to stop
It just keeps spreading
No matter how much I plead
It won’t let go of me


What must I do to make all of this go away?
This love hurts too much for either of us
I’m so tired of dealing with this
I can’t deal with the tears
I can’t deal with the second guessing
Yesterday is over
They say this would be a new day
Will this be the day you get to watch me burn?

I tell you of all the times I cry
And yet I still somehow get the lies
I bite my own hand till it bleeds
The things are only so much
Love is not something sentimental
If I could get rid of all my own possessions
To make everything so perfect
I’d do it a heartbeat.

This isn’t fair to me.
Because I don’t know if you would do the same for me.