The First Tear

I turn away and that first tear falls
Why let anyone see?
Why should I believe there's anyway
that anyone could help me?
They really can't
It's my fault alone
so that's how I have to deal..
on my own.

I'm done trying to fight it.
I no longer have energy.
Crying and lack of sleep
have taken their toll on me.

I'm running out of places
to store all of this pain..
People say for everything you lose
There's something that you gain.
But what could that thing be,
when you were my everything?
except I realized that too late
now all it does is sting...

I'll never get another chance
I've wasted so much time
Pushing you away,
to try to make him mine..

Even when I wouldn't let you be
you were always there
kind of like I am for him..
and like him, I didn't care.
Of course I do now
but too little too late
I hope you understand..
I'm so sorry mister Nate.. <3