family, friends, love, hate, past, future

as i sit here
i think
i think of those that have harmed me
of those that have loved me
of those i have loved
and i realize
theres not much in the way
of any commonality
between us
so what makes us
such good friends
and allies
why do we fight for one another
why do we fight for a common goal
that we cannot see
that we cannot fathom
why should i fight for you
when i have my own battles to fight
until the end of eternity
maybe not a physical battle
but still a battle nonetheless
my brothers
my sisters
my family
my lovers
mine enemies
the lights at the end of the tunnel
why must you taunt me so
why must i love you
it makes it so hard to trust myself
and yet
i cannot help but love you
as i love myself
my family sticks together
and i shall fight for you
no matter how long the fight may last
for the love of the world
for our love as family
i will fight on
as though i dont feel the blades in my back
that you put there
and left me bleeding with