Darkness

I run and run and run
but somehow the darkness keeps following me
its a never-ending cloud of depression and anger
the cloud prevents me from feeling emotions
i cut myself trying to find pain
but i still can't feel a thing
as i walk down a crowded street
i see happy people
sad people
and angry people
i envy them for the gift to feel emotions
i turn down an empty alley
and curl up in a ball and cry until i feel
something anything
but sadly it is only pain
the weight of my sick and twisted pain filled world
comes crashing down on me
i grab a knife and cut
i fall to the ground and never wake up
FREEDOM!