Stronger Words

Along the road to coming down
Survival broke my fall
It broke my resolution-
Tore my convictions all.
Perhaps I couldn’t kill it,
Perhaps I left a trace
Somewhere a buried memory
Something beyond erase...

An empathy divided
Would be my victory
But in this head of visions
Are stronger words for me.

And in my hatred I once thought
To blind my inner eye
But housed in this congested court
Are stronger wills than I.

The cruelest introversion
Would spare me from resolve
And yet my wielded prejudice
My other did dissolve;
It was a vain persistence-
Conversing in between
An exercise in distance,
Of studies I have been.

Relief is my distraction
My fading Holy Grail
And somewhere in a higher realm
Perhaps it will prevail;
I contemplate beyond myself
Or so my mind is certain
Or is it just a subtle haze-
A tangible perversion?

There’s something else I really want-
Something I cannot see,
Because I kept in my remorse
Much stronger words for me.