Lost time, Lost hope, Lost mind

i sit here and think of you
day after day
i try not to dwell on why
but you dont tell me
so i dream and i dream
wishing you would tell
but i find out through someone else
and i feel as though i was dropped in Hell
ive been dreaming for weeks
hoping to ask you myself
but you dont want me
so i have to say
im moving on
and no matter what
i will love you
but you dont mean as much
i see i wasted my time
the thoughts
the heart
i wish i could take some of it back now
it might make the pain more bearable
but i see that youre just another demon
in disguise hiding your true colors
you couldve said something in the beginning
but you didnt
you sat there and let me dream
while i sit here and ask myself why
i think of all the nice things that youve done
i see that all they mean is friends
but i want to delude myself further
take it to another level
but i can see that will never happen