The Death Of Me

Everything I do
Isn't right to you
Everything I say
You can't stand

I wish I could just please you
I want you to be proud of me
I need you to say you love me
And the throbbing pain inside
Makes me go crazy for a moment

Relizing that I don't need you
I can care for myself,
I have been so far
Why are you so imporant?
Is it because...

I can't seem to get myself over him
The promise I made to the most perious person in my life
involves you, so I go in cricles in my head
I scream my lungs out
Until I fall alseep

The tears remind me of him
Because my love for him is more than yours
And sadly, it will always stay that way
I know there is more than what I see
But your not even trying

The more I think about this,
I'm scared of what the outcome will be
You'll die someday like he did
And will I regret the way I have treated you?

Because you had treated me cruelly before,
shouldn't the bigger person fight evil with good?

The knot in my heart assures me
that you will not love me the same way as you love my sister,
But even so, I will continue to try and give up, until I die
Because I know you will be the death of me and your still my mother,
even if it just seems like that simple word links you to me....

The love I have for you is still in my heart, though it might be buried inside,
I'm sorry I love you,
I will try to be a good daugther to you, but as long as you try to be a good mother to me