The Irony Of This Situation

You are the reason my hearts beats a million times a second,
The reason my bed feels so cold and lonesome at night.
You are the one I yearn to touch and be comforted with,
The one who's arms I want wrapped around my body.
But for you to say that I dont love you at all,
To tell me that I only lie out of pity for you.

Pity is not what causes these warm butterflies to fly in my tummy,
Its is not pity that makes me feel safe when Im with you in even the worst of times.
It is not pity that causes pain in me when I figured the truth about you and her.

Telling me I didnt love you, but really, it was you that didnt love me.
Telling me I was the one that lie, when really, it was you whom did it without remorse.
Telling me that I was only with you out of pity, when really it was you that pitied me.

Being blind, I had ignored all the clues about the truth, simple mistake to make.
Being ignorant, I saw it all but I thought It was just me, my mistake.
Being in love without you, I still thought you did dispite what I knew deep inside, biggest mistake of my life.

And this is how you made me think what was going in you,
But it was really me feeling all these things inside.
All this time you made me feel so loved, giving me false security,
Saying you would sacrafice yourself for me, but I'm sure being with me is worse than if you die.