i loved you

I cry one thousand tears,
but speak a single word.
And though I speak it softly,
I want it to be heard.
I sigh one thousand sighs,
big and long and deep.
You pretend you did not hear
as I begin to weep.
The one who broke my heart,
the one who is dear to me,
and the one I speak about is you,
will you ever see?
Others may not like you,
but I don't care what they
think about inside their heads
or what they choose to say.
I listen to their rumours,
I listen to them talk,
when I tell them how I feel,
they just stand there and gawk.
as I sit here and write,
and as I begin to cry,
I think about the word I said,
and the word i said was "why?"