"Black Dreams"

Black dreams whisper my name.
Covered in the blood in the middle of a mess I made.
Tears rip from my eyes lost in my shame.
Messed up in my careful thoughtlessness,
You took my hand, singing in my ear.

I cry in my damaged world singing along with your pain,
Feeling it flood into my loneliness.
I smiled in the middle of my black dream.
Will you ever learn my name?
Listening from my world I will always love you, more than you need to know.

Death has ravaged my world more than once,
Far from home I learned my mom was gone,
Leaving me confused and afraid.
Crying in my dad’s arms awaiting death to come for him,
I held my breath.
My strength betrayed me; he was pulled from my grasp.
Alone, I was with my familiar pain.

Finally I tasted love, blinded with my longing, my first love,
My only love chose drugs on the street over us.
Alone again with gashes that wont heal deep in my chest,
I close my eyes and let your music sooth me.

Saving us from ourselves, in your modest panic.
I wrap my arms around your name.
I give you each a kiss in the rain and hope the wind carries them
to you and you know why I love you.

I lost my love to his chemical romance.

And now I’ve found mine.

With you in my pocket, I can smile through my black dream.