Pull the trigger

Sometimes I feel like putting the gun against my head
Just letting myself feel what it's life
Feel the cold metal touching my temple
Letting the rush of adrenaline rush to my stomach as I debate it
Debate if shooting myself in the head is worth it
Maybe I should
Pull the trigger I mean
It could make me famous, make me a great writer that couldn't deal with the pressure
Or I could be thought of as stupid
But if it gets me away from this stress isn't it worth it
Do I stay here and let this stress build
Or do I rid myself of it forever and if reincarnation is real
Start anew?