If Only You Knew

I may look happy,
I may act content,
I may appear joyful,
But sweetheart, you are mistaken.

If only you knew of every single thing
That goes through my mind,
All the things that I must battle
Each and every single day.

If you could know
Just how much I hate stereotypes,
I just brush them off
But do you know how I really feel?

If you could see
How much I’m falling for you,
I can’t help it
But I don’t want to lose you.

If you could hear
How much I hate you,
Well here it is; I hope you’re happy:
I hate you so fucking much, you bitch.
If you could feel
How smooth my arms are,
Will they remain like that?
I guess you’ll never know.

And if maybe just once
You could just see how hard it is for me,
See the things you never knew,
See the things you’ll never know.