Beautiful Fairy

It didn’t fee like I was enough,
So I changed my nose,
And I changed my skin,
And I changed my bones,
And I changed my blood,
And I changed my home,
And I changed my love,
And I changed my clothes,
And I changed my belly,
And I changed my friends,
And I changed my mind,
Until the man I wanted, came to me.

But after awhile he left anyway,
And I was alone with my new self.
We slept in our bed, with the rose.
She and I,
And sat by the pond waiting
For water lilies
And we wrote poems,
To each other
And we photographed
Ourselves in he mirror
And I was still lonely,
Rummaging in the bed,
In my sleep,
Seeking someone who,
Had never been there at all.

Then this big-eyed
Long-legged
Fourteen-year-old fairy
Wrote me
And she said she didn’t
Think she was beautiful
And I told her not to let her
Pain confuse her,
Trick her into thinking untruths
And I told her, that her pain was
Not her fault
But that she could use it
To make beauty
Instead of to hurt herself

And that night I slept peacefully
In my own arms.