bad memories

Do you recognize my heartache?
you know this pain is real.
But i'll never tell you anything,
Can't ever say how i feel.

Sometimes it's not there,
and i regret it ever was.
But then i remember those nights
your reason was"just because"

I dont know if it was ever your fault
and i hate blaming you
because i know you had a hard life
and all the pain you went through

But can't you see what your doing?!
Do you remember what you did
the night that you got wasted
and acted like a kid?

No, worse then a kid.
you were a bitch and i hate you
but i can never tell you this
because i still love you too

I care about your feelings
and i dont want to hurt you more
but just so you know
you're why my wrists are sore