I want you to see

I hate you.
I hate you so fucking much.
What the fuck did I do to deserve this shit, huh?
You fucking liar.
I have no clue how the hell you can live with youself.
Knowing you completely fucked over someone else's life.
You disgust me.

Why the fuck did you leave.
What did I do?
You promised me, you fucking piece of slag.
I loved you so fucking much, but you threw it away like a piece of trash.
You didn't have to fucking crumple the paper in the process of tossing it into the fucking waste basket.
Where did I go wrong?
Tell me that, give me a reason for why you left.
I lost the love of my life.
And I'm fucking sick and tired of people telling me to get over it.
You try to blame me, but fuck you it's your fault.
Your the one that changed, your the one that made me cry every fucking night.
But I stuck with you, because I loved you.

I put up with shit no person should.
And it fucking sucked.
How dare you have said you loved me.
How dare you say I was beautiful.
How dare you say I was perfect.
How dare you lie.

You have no fucking idea how bad you hurt me.
When you left, you took a chunk of my heart with you.
You said I never loved you.
Fuck, I gave you everything.
My heart, my soul, my time.
What more do you fucking want?
Do you want my damn tears too?
Because their sure is fucking enough.

I've been put through hell, where the fuck is the light of heaven.
My heart, it beat for you.
Now it beats for no one.
It beats, simply because that is its function.

I poured out my heart and sould and told you how much I loved you and missed you.
But you never took it seriously.
You said you had someone new that actually loved you, unlike me.
Motherfucker, I did love you.
I wouldn't take the time to write this if I didn't.

I never did anything.
All the nights of praying, begging God that you'd see it.
All you said is that you weren't the same person.
Oh so I fell in love with a lie?
You could have spared me, you know.
You could have simply ignored me, and never bothered talking to me.
Why the fuck would you make me fall for you, if you didn't plan to catch me.

One day I hope you understand what it feels like to have your heart ripped to shreds.
The feeling of being punished by God.
The feeling of the one person you never thought would turn their back on you, did.
I hope you know what it feels like to have your world come crashing down.

I tried so fucking hard to make you happy.
I suffered just so you could be happy.

I'm not asking for you back, I don't even think I want that.
Your just going to hurt me again.
I just want you too see.

What you lost.....
♠ ♠ ♠
Had to get it out <3
You lost the best your ever going to get, and you know it.