I promise...

I sit here in the darkness
Wondering why I am here
Why god created this mess
This scared, broken little girl

I used to be happy, shy,
Quiet and innocent,
Now all I do is cry
And sit in dark rooms

Sometimes with a blade
Held close to my wrist,
Trying to end this crusade
Wishing to end my life

Then just before the blood
I think of all I have to live for
My sisters by blood,
And my sisters by friendship

I make a decision not to end it
And I swear to all my sisters,
I will never make another slit
And go back to my happy self

DEDICATED TO CRYSTAL SZANYI!!!
11/10/10