I wanted you to be my nothing...

I wonder if you know I cry everynight.
I wonder if you know I pray for hours everynight.
I wonder if you know, I said everything I wanted to say.
But I still have so much, I need to say.
I wonder if you know, that when I told you never to talk to me again, I meant the exact opposite, I wanted you to refuse.
I wanted you to fight.
I wonder if you know, everyday we spent together I remember crystal clear, and I hate it.

I wonder if you know how much I hate you.
I wonder how you could ever even say I never loved you.
I think you're blind to love, because that's all I ever showed.
I wonder if you know, how much I was in love with you.
I wonder if you know, that I don't want you, I need you.
Please, tell me it was a lie.
Please, tell me it was a lie when you said you were over it.
Please, tell me you think about me from time to time.
Please, tell me that you are sorry.
Please, tell me you still love me.
Please, remember not to forget me.

I wonder if you know,
as much as I hate you, I love you even more.
You could, well you already did.
You already took everything from me.
You took my heart with you too.
You took everything, I wanted you to be my nothing.
Because nothing lasts forever.

That's how much I loved you, I wanted to spend eternity with you.
Forever, in your arms.
Smothered with your kisses.
Drowning in your eyes.

I just wonder, if you know how sick it makes me thinking about you kissing some other girl.
Calling someone else beautiful.
Dancing with someone else, while no music plays.
It makes me sob, sob so hard.
At the thought of you telling another girl
"Sweet dreams, I love you."
Every single night.

You were the angel, from my dark & dank nightmare.
You were my first love.
You were my everything.
You were the reason I took breaths.

I know, I know I may have screwed up a bit.
And maybe I started some fights that weren't neccasary.
And I know, for certain, no other girl will ever love you as much as I do.

I just want you to know,
no matter what you do, I'm always here for you.
And I hope one day......
We'll be together again.

And maybe that time,
for......
Forever