Loving Little Secret

It's such a big secret that I carry,
One that will change worlds.
It is simply too scary,
And too complicated to explain.

Some say my secret is obvious,
But I don't see how.
I always think of us,
Maybe that's why my mind is clouded.

I wish to tell you,
But I know you won't approve.
Because I know what you will do,
And that's what I'm afraid of.

Push, shove, abandon me,
That's how it will end.
It won't be long until I flee,
And escape from my heart.

But I can't make up my mind,
Open up or shut myself away.
Stay with you or leave you behind,
Such a hard decision I must make.

It's obvious I can't live without you,
Yet at the same time,
I know you would want me to.
So what's the point in wishing?

I wished to find love,
And I found you.
You gave me a rough shove,
And look where I've fallen.

No one's here to catch me,
So why waste my breath.
My heart is no longer free,
'Cause you have it in a tight grasp.