I Don't Know What To Think Anymore

There you go again
Running your mouth
Don't you ever think about others?
Oh no, how naive of me to think that

It's always about you isn't it?
You and your problems
There are so many of them
It's a wonder how you even sleep with all those thoughts

First, it was when your boyfriend broke up with you
Then, it was you grandfather and your issues
Later, it was the fact that you have an "eating disorder"
The List goes on and on

I know I'm supposed to be your best friend
But it's so damn hard!
Especially when you don't pay attention to me
And my problems that are scaring me

I have a problem,
But you don't see that
You brushed it off
When I first told you

Do you know how much that hurt?
Hurt and confused me?
It just cause the problem to get bigger
I'm still confused

I don't know what to think
What to think about you
About our friendship
and About which of the stories you're telling are actualy hard

Being with you makes reality a blur
It's getting harder and harder
To distinguish
Between Reality and fiction

So what do I do
What do I think
What do I feel
I need answers

But you aren't there to help me through it
Even though you are one of the many people who started
Helping my mind fester my problem
Making it worse with each word

I need Help.
Help thinking
feeling
and especially with happiness.

I just don't know what to do anymore
So for the meantime
I give up
Let you deal with yourself

Because apparently "You have no friends"