La La La

La La La.
With so much going on in my life
all I hear is La La La.
my brain buzzes with confusion.
emotions run wild.
Can't concentrate,
can't focus.
Certain faces stick in my memory,
not good ones.
But bad ones.
Humming,
like little mosquitos in my brain.
insanity.
a spark of it.
goes through my veins.
makes me feel,
free.
I like the rush.
but not too much.
la la la.
thats all people are to me,
a helpless buzzing in my ear,
that never goes away.