When you didnt care i formed these cuts

What did i do to myself?
Im always reasonable
I guess ive lost that
But when i lost you

When you didnt care
When you joked about my pain

I wish you cold tell how im not smilling
Or how depressed i Really am
If only you could see my wrists
Or how i look when i cry

Maybe then you would know what im really like
Maybe then you would understand my pain and agony
I dont why but its who i have become
Consumed by its darkening of the heart

At least I understand life has its ups
But most of the time im down
In a blue thick fog that confuses what we see
Not who we are