Temporary

Red taints my skin and sleeves.
blood of truth,
blood of loyalty,
blood of pain.
Each cut brings a temporary relief.
But temporary is temporary and cannot stay.

Each time i fake a smile, my heart breaks.
Each time my heart breaks i yearn for a blade.
The blade is my savior,
The blood is my knowledge,
The pain is my relief.
Each cut brings a temporary high,
but temporary is temporary and cannot stay.

My life is in ruins, Yet i smile.
i smile through the good,
I smile through the bad,
and i smile through the ugly.
yet smiles being smiles are only temporary,
and temporary is temporary and cannot stay.