Sometimes

Sometimes I love her.
Sometimes I hate her.
Sometimes she's strong and I feel like she can conquer the world.
But sometimes she's weak and I can she the world crumble at her feet.
Felt like she abandoned us.
Like we didn't matter.
I know deep in my heart that's its not true.
And I'm wrong for ever doubting her intentions.
I won't hide what I feel.
I keep raising her up and up.
At the same time I'm brining myself down and down.
Sometimes I wanna run to her and hug her with all my might.
Sometimes I wanna run to her and rip out her heart.
A lifeline is what she said I was.
A lifeline is what I used to be.
She runs and hides.
But I won't play this game of Hide&Seek.
She depends on others to fix her problems.
I want to be selfish and only be strong for myself.
But she can't stand for herself. And I can see that now.
Sometimes I wish she wouldn't lie.
Sometimes I wish I could believe her.
Ill let her do what she wants.
I just hope she remembers that I'm not bulletproof.
I can crack and break into pieces.
She is my Mother.
I am her Daughter.
Sometimes we just have to be there for each other.
Sometimes the price that we have to pay just doesn't matter.