Apologize

I apologize for it
The way I’ve been
I apologize for this
For every lie every sin

Cause when I win
I feel on top
I have to share with the kin
I have to show it off

And it is never enough
Just me and my greed
We all have it rough
That’s why I run to weed

And then I feed
This pain in my heart
Create this little seed
That grows, tears me apart

And bursts out my heart
So I wear it on my sleeve
Just to show it off
Show the pain you leave

Show it to everyone
Till they get up and leave
And then I run
To what I can’t achieve

In till I know
What’s wrong with me?
Till I hold
Onto what I can't see

My mind is blank
But my hearts left open
And my head sank
And my hearts dipped in sin

And turned black
Show it off a little more
Show what I lack
Throw it to the floor

To get a reaction
A reaction I can’t control
Weather it be attraction
Or everything will blow

I can\t help but show
What’s wrong with me?
Show off my low
For everyone to see

I apologize for it
Ya the way I’ve been
I apologize for this
For every lie every sin

Every time I couldn’t stay on the ground
Every time I had to make some sound
Every time I needed to say a rhyme
Just to stay in control of my mind

Every time needed to stay
Every time I needed to run away
Every time I just decided to leave
Every time I had to grieve

Every time I let you down
Every time I wasn’t around
Every time I rouse above
Every time I fell in love

Every time I played this game
Because every time it stays the same