Unknown

The opening of the emptiness
filled inside with deep despair
But the monster inside me
is trying to grasp for air
The loneliness pouring out
when nobody can hear
The time I'm with you is
the only thing I can bear
Controlled, un-controlled, the
monster fills with heat
My heart begins to studder
as it goes a different beat
I try to hide it
I really do
Somehow, someway
it always gets through
You'll never see it
well, at least I hope
I don't know how you'll act
or even how you'll cope
My body completely
changes who I wish to be
I want to be different
nothing like me
My body convulses, twists
and turns
It doesn't stop until
my insides burn
The burning sensation
disguises my feelings
As a human
I was a true being
In this form,
I don't know what I was
People say I'm like this
just because
My old mind
is no longer itself
I am now forgotten
like dust upon a shelf.