Sinking

How can it be,
After all of the excitement,
That the ground beneath my feet turns to ash,
How can it be,
After showering in rays of sun,
That the sky above my body is going red,

Will I ever get over this fear,
The demon inside guides me to more ridicule,
And I can't stop it,
It feels like that's just the way it is now,
There's no more life to live,
I have no more empathy to give,
But I barely got to use it,

I saw how your face fell,
And I wanted to run to you,
And say, everything isn't as bad as you think it might be,
But I can't lie to myself anymore,
And I refuse to misguide you,
Never in my life was I able to stop sinking,

Does the darkness know your name?
I can see the scarlet letter tattooed on the hollow of your neck,
Your hair pinned back to reveal your mistakes,
You can't hide, I can see you somewhere inside, your alone,
Aren't we all though?
So why cry for you?
I'm already sinking,

But my case is one of few,
I bleed in the crimson tide I'm poisoned,
Into believing that somehow, I will make it through this
With you still in my life,
Who knows, though, where you'll be,
In your abyss or in the white room screaming your name so you won't forget it,
Maybe then, I will find you, maybe then, I can stop us both from sinking,

I'm so sorry I am not brave, like her, like him, like the person you want to be,
But you're just as helpless as me,
So we'll force each other there,
At the peak, in the distance,
Just stop me from sinking.