Emily, Maybe

I'm not sure
If I'm quite yet Emily.
My eyes can't decide to be brown or green
But my hair knows, so I stay a long-locked brunette.
I suppose I'm 14 but that doesn't feel right.
Slouching is a pastime because 5'4" is too tall.
People are annoying but they're what I love best
Besides music, for I adore that.
When I was young you thought me precocious
But now that I'm old you wonder when I'll grow from childhood.
I like chilly weather for jackets and colored leaves on sunshine.
I like sisters but only when it suits me
And I have too many hair clips, so I let myself lose them to my baby cousin.
I adore photos and inspiration,
Love too many bracelets.
I love hot chocolate but coffee is better
Certain times I get angry at the world
But that's only till I find a new distraction.
Without a purpose I am lost, so I look for new projects
When that doesn't work I just read.
High school is scary for
I don't know much of other goings-on
But I think one day I'll figure it out hopefully.
Sometimes I dote on ideas of
Astronauts and owning a vintage shop and traveling the world and saving the planet and going back in time and riding an elephant and using a typewriter
And doing a million other things
But I'm too young now so I'll work on finding myself instead.
Apparently I'm lost.
For now I'll just be Emily
Probably
Maybe.