Perhaps

Open my eyes
All i can see
Is not what is now
But what came before

What things ive done
The things i said
All lies
No truth in anything

How could i do such things
Could that really have been me
Who hurt you so
Broke you down

You say its allright
That all is forgotten
Perhaps for you
But for me...

How could i ever forgive myself
The things i have done
Sins ive commited
Against the one i love

Unforgivable acts
Wish i could take them back
Wash away the guilt
The painful reminder

The scars i bear
They are my punishment
My reminder
Of what ive done

Never may i forget
The pain only grows
Everytime i see your face
My scars bleed

A never ending mark
Of my eternal shame
Never forgive myself
Forever to live with my deeds

Dont say forgiveness
For i do not deserve it
Dont say love
For i am not worthy of it

Hell is my reward
The paradise of my regret
My punishment for all time
Perhaps, it was always meant to be this way