bent and broken

i wished and wished with all my might
that i could win this stupid fight.
i dont know why i feel this way,
i just hope it doesnt decide to stay.
i want you here by my side,
but no, im alone on a forsaken ride.
never can you see my tears.
thats one of my biggest fears.
its because im so "young"
that my heart, above me, is now hung.
sufficated by the thing i desire.
the death of my heart rose higher and higher.
now i lay bent and broken
never to be seen, never to be awoken.