I still hate Ants

A guy can't like me.
I am too out of place here.
I wish they could see.

But I am too weird.
I can't be loved and be weird.
I should change myself.

I wish you could see.
I wish you could see the pain.
Just give me the time.

But you take the friends.
We could never be the same.
Why did I tell you.

I need to shut up.
Now you just see the weirdness.
You can't see the realness.