You Left...

You listen, but you don't hear
Looks like committment's your worst fear
Tell me, do you remember? 'Cause I do.
I don't think you have a clue
That I remember those times
Before I knew words that rhyme
I couldn't write
But I remember those nights
You would fight and get mad
And you'd beat Mom so bad
I remember the bruises and screams
That the neighbors heard through window screens
I remember the cops with hand cuffs
That didn't make you look so tough
You've left so many times before
Off to be with some whore
Leaving me to grow up prematurely
But I thought "Surely,"
"Surely, he'll always come back."
Until that day you packed.
Now you're around more
Why is this different than before?
Because you know I've given up trying?
That saying "I love you" would be lying?
You're the one who chose
You just lack conviction, I suppose.
You should have been here
For me, to wipe away every tear
To take away my pain
To keep me sane
But you've made your bed
Lie in it. There's no more to be said.
After all the lying, cheating, and deceit
Do you even have a heart that can beat?
No, I think not, I think you threw it away
I guess that's why I couldn't make you stay
You've lost me forever
I hope you think you're clever
Nothing can be repaired
I just wonder: Have you ever fucking cared?