Friends

My emotion change faster then
then seasons in a year do
for when I laid my eyes upon you
i felt like my life was about to end
for there was a type of hatred
that felt like a evil
suddenly i knew i had a war on my hands
i thought i could keep you at
arms length from me
but you saw past that
you saw the invisible thorns wrapped around my black heart
for some reason you could see through my hatred
to my blood red tears
that only fear could bring
you fought against the rage
that would burn anyone or worse
you didn't care though
for the only thing you wanted was
to find the real me which was lost from the world
even then you didn't stop
for you knew the pain went deeper
that the world never knew
the suddenly hope shine through
and i felt a type of jealousy against you
for you knew so little about me
but that didn't stop you
for deep down you knew i was only looking for a friend
just that when i saw you with other people i wondered why they were better then me
the envy seemed to rip open old wounds
that i thought was long closed
what did they have that i didn't
after awhile i went back into the abyss
that i knew as home
the cold harsh winters came back
the envy grew and grew
until my heart was pitch black
i want you to leave me alone
for this had never happen until you came around
yet you say that wasn't the real me speaking
you would not allow me to go
instead you fought to bring back the old me
just that when the monster saw what you were trying to do
he through a red lava ball of rage toward you
but it didn't stop you
you were on a mission that you wouldn't be thrown off
finally you found me in my own prison
that was colder then ice
as you got closer you saw the chains that bind me to the wall
i had given up all hope on life
just that you hadn't given up hope on me
you took me off the wall just to see i was
covered in blood form head to toe
the only thing was the blood wasn't mine
for some reason i felt invisible to you
but you showed me differently
that i wasn't just another troubled soul
you found a way to help
that i was special to you
deep down you knew that i was just afraid
how could you have fouled me not to be afraid
if you didn't understand it yourself
so once you understood my fears
you know exactly how to help me out
even when i thought it was impossible
you soot by me until you
knew i was able e to deal with it myself
yet you didn't stop there
for you knew the truth about what i need
after going through so many harsh events
that i thought was impossible to go through

then before me own eyes i saw something
was growing between us
at first i couldn't tell you what it was
it was not going to go through at all
suddenly i saw what was growing between
us a type of friendship
i was so unsure if i really want to
let the friendship blossom into a beautiful flower or not
i tried to keep this friendship on the down low
but it didn't work
for our friendship blossom into a beautiful flower
that could not be contain in the box any longer
now our friendship is slowly growing into new grounds

don't know what i would have made it this far
thank you for all your help