Does He?

does he love me i can't tell I've heard things and i can't tell
he doesn't seem like i once saw the love in comments overall i don't know what to do but I've heard things that i don't think are true but i am just human and we make mistakes but I'm insecure though it don't seem like that at all i don't know i wanna believe my heart but he not saying anything against it doesn't seem right maybe he's mad of the things said maybe it's true but as I've said we are nothing but humans and we make mistakes so maybe this is one he thinks he has made or maybe it's nothing more but a vengeful ex-boyfriend i want him to say that it isn't true and make me believe it because he's one of the only guys left i believe no guy in my house do i believe because i have found out many things and lies beyond them so now i just wounder does he love me and want to be with me and if he does is he ashamed of me because i am who i am? so my only question here is what does he actually feel?