Confusion

What do you want from me?
Why can't you let me be?
All the pressure is intense
All the lies make no sense

People smile but cry inside
All is fair but all has died
Color is nothing more but grey
People don't care what I say

I cry despite the lack of tears
For all is tainted by my fears
The shadows hide my internal scars
My lonely nights are spent in bars

I do not smoke but my lungs are ashy
I am high class but my clothes are trashy
I am quite short and yet very tall
I am not scared and yet fear all

This darkness has devoured me whole
I am no more, I fulfilled my role
As the girl who suffered unimaginable pain
As the girl who was labelled simply plain