November

I posted this on November 16, 2010.
Days later, on the 22nd I found out my girlfriend cheated on me.
It seems, after all I was right.

The warm, hard choking feeling.
The soft, whimpering held in.
Here I am, trying to predict how my week is gonna go.
I'll go to school, acting content, knowing what's coming.
Powerless to stop it.
I'll see you, then it'll hit me, after your words sink in.

I always ask myself, what if she's thinking of someone else?
What if she wants to be in someone else's arms.
What if she doesn't feel the same as I?

Sure, it's probably my paranoia kicking in.
Can I learn to live with it, is my question.