My Ride into the Sunset

Peace,
Will it never come?
Will calm waters ever flow beneath my vessel?
Im walking a rickity bridge.
I dont know what to say to you,
i dont know whether to cry or smile when you say my name.
Ive been told that i am unstable,
that my world will never be balanced,
my waters will never be calm.
I know that you're a bad idea,
ive weighed the pros and cons a million times.
Tossed you around in my mind for a while.
Then it came to me,
I deserve so much more than this.
I should have someone who will hold my hand,
someone who will make me smile when im crying.
Not this,
Not meaningless courting,
not hopeful wishes that are far from the real world,
not You.
My ride into the sunset will come one day,
You're just not the person ill be sharing it with.