Loving You is Risky

What I want so much to say
I choke on each day
These words inside of me
Are twisting in agony
And I find myself falling
Only more tragically
I have the ability
To express my hostility
But I show you my sincerity
That doesn’t come in rarity
Because you deserve better
I’ll give you this letter
Explaining my contravention
With my own selfish intention
I don’t “follow” maturities
I drown in my own insecurities
Yet you still compliment me
Knowing you’re only so convincing
You see, my belief system
Is something quite winsome
Until you learn the “why”
Behind each truth and lie
I promise you this
My mind’s such an abyss
Don’t be surprised
If you look into my eyes
And see something different
That will change everything in an instant
But desperately pray
It’s not something I would say
[Because my lips
Wouldn’t dare let this slip]
Directed to no one else but you
“It’s over, I’m tired, I’m sick of this, we’re through”