Breakdown, not break-up

Running wildly through the halls
Breaking down all the walls
People staring, startled, confused
But ain’t it funny, I don’t care any more

Between the clumps of people
You walked right through to me
I’m sprawled on the floor, drowning in my tears
Broken, nothing left to fix

Are you taunting me? I don’t give a damn
I’m not gonna deny I’ve lost the game
Every vivid memory, all the pain
Haunting my heart, overloading my brain

All the roads to sanity blocked once again
Nothing can change the facts
Those judging eyes, thinking I’m insane
They don’t know a thing about what they’re saying

They don’t know how it feels like to be left out
To feel the love and have it taken away
They don’t know what it means to give it your all
To sell your soul to the heartless devil

And yet I began thinking the devil’s more merciful than you
At least it won’t have me hanging in false hopes
Bringing me up to the heavens with a word
Then slapping me down to the darkest pits of hell

It wasn’t a fairytale nor were you my prince charming
And yet I couldn’t help but fall helplessly for you
You promised to catch me, to never let go of me
Was it that easy for you to be the one pushing me down?

So, yeah I was pushed around like your little doll
Yeah I gave you everything you ever asked
I went and told all sorts of fantasies about me and you
I played that little game till I believed it myself

I believed the spawn of the devil could be my guarding angel
I believed your mocking me was just your way of expressing love
So, maybe I watched too much cliché romances
But, it was the only way of escaping the cruel reality

And now you’re watching as I fall for the last time
Not gathering the pieces, but crushing them once and for all
You’re asking me why am I doing all this?
Well, maybe when you said break-up, I heard it breakdown