Left alone

Sitting under this tree the same place you left me, staring blankly at where you once were.
The world has grown a whole lot bigger or I just got smaller. I think
I think I got smaller
I mean I did just loose my other half

My half that is missing is the half that caused happiness, joy, calm and serenity
Now I am nothing but bitter, angry, chaotic, and out of my mind.

Why?
Why did you do this?
I was perfectly fine with you by my side.

What?
What did I do?
What did I say?
This must be my fault because you were perfection.

I just don't understand but maybe someday you will come back for me.
To explain or maybe even love again.
Probably not.
Maybe all that will have to stay a dream and not my reality