I Thought..

So I thought you were the one.
I thought this time would be different.
But I was wrong.

I thought if I put it all on the line,
If I meant everything I said,
Went out of my way to give you time...
Everything would be fine.
But i was wrong.

But this time was different.
This time I trusted you.
This time I got hurt.

I thought because you were older,
You would understand.
I thought I didn't have to go out of my way to impress you.
That you liked me the way I am.
But I was wrong.

You blame it on busyness,
You blame it on not being fair.
I didn't mind the busyness,
I just wanted to feel like you cared.
Not I don't know..

I don't know why you were too busy,
If you found time to see your friends.
I don't understand,
Why could you find the time to see me before,
When we weren't more than just friends.
I don't understand why you don't want me,
But if I'm still interested in January...
You'll want me then.

I cared about you,
I wanted to see you.
45 minutes isn't that far away,
Not compared to Singapore.
I was aware of you going away,
I was willing to deal with it...
But you couldn't even deal with being busy.

I had finally gotten over my imperfection,
I'd gotten over all the times I've hated myself.
I've gotten over not being perfect,
Wanting to be like everyone else.

You told me you wanted something semi serious.
You told me you wanted to be with me...
people told me not to trust you.
You told me not to trust you,
That trust should be earned and that you haven't earned it.
I guess I just trust everyone...

I guess I wanted to trust you.

I've never felt this feeling before,
This feeling of being torn in two.
I thought after my mates taking me out,
I was feeling a lot better.
But then when they pulled up out the front,
And they parked where your car was...
Exactly where your car was, 5 hours prior.
and then it all transpired.

That feeling of neglect,
That feeling of regret.
I want to wake up tomorrow morning and feel better.
I want to wake up tomorrow,
And know that someone out there still cares.