Change

Why is it
That your smell
That used to make me smile
Made me high with happiness
Now makes me want to puke?

Why is it
That your touch
That used to make me shiver
Made me go crazy with bliss
Now makes me want to cringe?

While you are away,
My heart comes undone.
But while you are here,
My stomach wants to turn inside out.

When I see you,
I become blind to the world.
But I can’t figure out
If it’s because of love or hate.

When I hear your voice,
My whole body leaps.
But I can’t tell
If it’s because I’m scared, or over-joyed.

Why is this?
What did we do?
Can I ever change it back
To the way I knew…

Will you help me?
Can you help me?
Do you even care?
Did you want this to last?
Or was it only “there”?

At least tell me the truth…
Maybe I’m asking for too much.
Maybe I misunderstood.
But you seem to have too…

Okay, so maybe it wasn’t “meant to be”
But could you just do one more thing …
Could you save myself from me?