Sorrowfully Sad

I do not like a lot of happiness,
'Cause all I can feel is a lot of sadness.
I'm not one for rainbows and flowers,
Instead I sit alone for hours and hours.
My eyes are like faucets, pouring out tears.
I've been this way for sixteen years.

I do not like Valentine's Day,
It's just like any other happy day.
It makes me retch and want to die,
But instead I sit and cry.

My favorite day of the year,
Is when I don't have to see or hear;
Hugging, kissing, laughing, dieing
Or all of your sighing, because of my crying.

I cannot help the way I am,
Because I am:
Heartbroken, sad, quiet, alone, unlovable
And sometimes a little huggable.

I am this wya because of you,
So say goodbye so I can be through.
Just because it's a happy day,
Doesn't mean I don't love you!