Anything to Forget

I feel your words

Like knives digging in my skin

I try not to go back

To my time of darkness

But it can get so hard

When it’s calling your name

Don’t cut, don’t use, don’t starve

Self-correcting,

I really shouldn’t go back

It gets so hard to quit

Five minutes of forgetting

Is it worth going back

I can stop any time I want